Wednesday, January 17, 2007
8:48 PM
Agrh. so unlucky. my computer had been attacked by the virus and have lost the match, i have to suffer the conseqences of not using computer. so boring at homw doing nothing. oh yeah.
trying to cope up with my studies as the new year have started. and in the short period of time of the year. i have understand a lot of things. i understand that no one can be trusted including friends or even the ones closest to you may be a dangerous person. and i have learn the lesson from yeh gee that when a person is not seeing the other, the distance between them drifted apart for me who i care. same for me. she is hurting me, hurting me deep this time round again. she striked and i only can stood there and cry and do nothing. she is always the one that keep on hurting me and she is also my best friend, sitting next to her make me depressed. i dun want everything that happened last year happened again today in this year. she always makes my attitude changed towards her, making me very fustrated, trying to be back to myself in the olden days in primary school. sometimes i feel like crying out loud where no one can see me crying. however, that is impossible. trying to understand them makes me even more confuse. i feel like VOWING to be back to myself but that is difficult. or maybe not, i will try to give up the world of LOVE in my life, with no love in my world and i will leave the real word and live in my fantasy world of darkness. that i will engross in it.
p.s.: the blogskin that i hve just changed is a temporary blogskin till i find a better one.
Agrh. so unlucky. my computer had been attacked by the virus and have lost the match, i have to suffer the conseqences of not using computer. so boring at homw doing nothing. oh yeah.
trying to cope up with my studies as the new year have started. and in the short period of time of the year. i have understand a lot of things. i understand that no one can be trusted including friends or even the ones closest to you may be a dangerous person. and i have learn the lesson from yeh gee that when a person is not seeing the other, the distance between them drifted apart for me who i care. same for me. she is hurting me, hurting me deep this time round again. she striked and i only can stood there and cry and do nothing. she is always the one that keep on hurting me and she is also my best friend, sitting next to her make me depressed. i dun want everything that happened last year happened again today in this year. she always makes my attitude changed towards her, making me very fustrated, trying to be back to myself in the olden days in primary school. sometimes i feel like crying out loud where no one can see me crying. however, that is impossible. trying to understand them makes me even more confuse. i feel like VOWING to be back to myself but that is difficult. or maybe not, i will try to give up the world of LOVE in my life, with no love in my world and i will leave the real word and live in my fantasy world of darkness. that i will engross in it.
p.s.: the blogskin that i hve just changed is a temporary blogskin till i find a better one.